Scouring through old FB conversations with old friends, I stumbled upon this message I had for a dying friend. The date's Feb. 6, 2012. This friend was dying of a rare cancer. The sorry excuse of an asswipe that I am, I discovered that I was probably drunk in Cavite the time I sent the message. Here goes:
[insert name here]
Still remember me? Anyway, I've heard of what happened to you through [name]. And as far as I could remember, he had a plan to collect letters from all your Bosconian friends, classmates, and teachers. I promised to give one but, unfortunately, I failed to do so because of a lot of things that happened. You know, things are strange here in Cavite.
Well, to fulfill that promise and, actually, to more of, express my concern for you, I decided to just send you a message here.
Okay, so what's my concern? I don't know, actually. I just want you to know that I was shocked when I learned what happened to you, thinking that you were the nicest guy in our class.
But yeah, shit happens. It's like life's a goddamn road without an exact destination, and we just walk and walk until we find ourselves stepping on shit the size of our face, and as deep as our thoughts. And we go on walking thinking that life stinks.
Pero ayos lang yan. Tang ina. Sorry pero 'yan lang ang words of wisdom ko for you (at kapag may ganyang shit na nangyayari sakin, feeling ko yan rin lang matatanggap ko.)
Wala e, okay lang yan at ''tang ina'' is the word that suits your life best right now. I mean, when shit happens, we can just be a shit and be happy with it. I know you're strong, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I feel it from you ever since. So, wala, mag-wala na lang tayo sa kasiyahan ng mundo. Anyway, bakasyon lang naman ang buhay. Tapos nito, laboy uli sa kung saan.
Nakakatuwa ng kasi 'di ba sa Busko nagdadasal tayo ng prayer for a happy death. Tang ina gago kapag naaalala ko yun parang ang creepy. Come to think of it, children praying for their death to be happy? C'me on!
Pero I see the point. All of us are going to die and shit. Death is as inevitable as hunger. Wala, it's the only sure thing. Masyado lang tayong ginogoyo ng tidbits of comfort ng mundo. Feeling natin lasting yun.
Pero sabi nga ni Buddha (Sidharta) pare, life is a suffering. Wala tayong ligtas dun. We can't fool ourselves that life is a ever-expanding beach resort full of strip-teasing bitches. Life is closer to hell than it is to heaven.
Puta kung anu-ano nang sinasabi ko. Pero Delfin tang ina nag-english ako 'no? Haha. Tang ina lasing pa yata ako. Magfootball ka lang lagi kahit bembol roco na hairstyle mo. Hehe. I'll be sending some of my stuff (poetry) sa email mo (ano ba email ad mo?) para maaliw ka naman diyan minsan. Haha.
Sige pre, natatae na ko. Godbless! Until we meet again!
P.S. I got a full beard too, man. Hehe. Mas pogi na 'ko sa 'yo.
